This is me

I’ve just been flicking through some facebook photos, going from the present to the more in the past, and when i hit May i was suddenly aware of a longing for that time, that feeling again.  

Confusing.  Especially as i’m in such a super-exciting phase of life atm.

Then i realised - it clicked into place and made perfect sense.  Back in May, i was pre-illness.  That’s what i missed.  What i miss. Not feeling like this all the time.  

It’s been 6 months.  And i hate how it’s effected me.  And how that’s getting harder to spot as how i should feel becomes a distant memory.